你发觉到了吗？
　　　　爱的感觉，总是在一开始觉得很甜蜜，
　　　　总觉得多一个人陪、多一个人帮你分担，
　　　　你终于不再孤单了，至少有一个人想着你、
　　　　恋着你，不论做什么事情，
　　　　只要能一起，就是好的，
　　　　但是慢慢的，随着彼此的认识愈深，
　　　　你开始发现了对方的缺点，
　　　　于是问题一个接着一个发生，
　　　　你开始烦、累，甚至想要逃避，
　　　　有人说爱情就像在捡石头，
　　　　总想捡到一个适合自己的，
　　　　但是你又如何知道什么时候能够捡到呢？
　　　　她适合你，那你又适合他吗?
　　　　其实，爱情就像磨石子一样，
　　　　或许刚捡到的时候，你不是那么的满意，
　　　　但是记住人是有弹性的，
　　　　很多事情是可以改变的，
　　　　只要你有心、有勇气，
　　　　与其到处去捡未知的石头，
　　　　还不如好好的将自己已经拥有的石头磨亮，你开始 磨了吗？
　　　　很多人以为是因为感情淡了，
　　　　所以人才会变得懒惰。
　　　　错！
　　　　其实是人先被惰性征服，
　　　　所以感情才会变淡的。
　　
　　
　　　　在某个聚餐的场合，
　　　　有人提议多吃点虾子对身体好，
　　　　这时候有个中年男人忽然说「十年前，当我老婆还 是我的女朋友的时候，
　　　　她说要吃十只虾，我就剥二十只给她！
　　　　现在，如果她要我帮她剥虾壳，开玩笑！我连帮她 脱衣服都恍巳ち耍拱嚎沁郑　　　　　听到了吗？明白 了吗？
　　　　
　　　　难怪越来越多人只想要谈一辈子的恋爱，
　　　　却迟迟不肯走入婚姻。
　　　　因为，婚姻容易让人变得懒惰。
　　　　如果每个人都
　　　　懒得讲话、
　　　　懒得倾听、
　　　　懒得制造惊喜、
　　　　懒得温柔体贴，
　　　　那么夫妻或是情人之间，
　　 又怎么会不渐行渐远渐无声呢？
　　　　所以请记住：
　　　　有活力的爱情，
　　　　是需要适度殷勤灌溉的，
　　　　谈恋爱，更是不可以偷懒的喔！
　　　　
　　　　有一对情侣，相约下班后去用餐、逛街，
　　　　可是女孩因为公司会议而延误了，
　　　　当她冒着雨赶到的时候已经迟到了30多分钟，
　　　　他的男朋友很不高兴的说：
　　　　你每次都这样，现在我甚么心情也没了，
　　　　我以后再也不会等你了！
　　　　刹那间，女孩终于决堤崩溃了，
　　　　她心里在想：或许，他们再也没有未来了
　　　　
　　　　同样的在同一个地点，另一对情侣也面临同样的处 境；
　　　　女孩赶到的时候也迟到了半个钟头，
　　　　他的男朋友说：「我想你一定忙坏了吧！」
　　　　接着他为女孩拭去脸上的雨水，并且脱去外套盖在 女孩身上，
　　　　此刻，女孩流泪了
　　　　但是流过她脸颊的泪却是温馨的。
　　　　你体会到了吗？
　　　　
　　　　其实爱、恨往往只是在我们的一念之间！
　　　　爱不仅要懂得宽容更要及时，
　　　　很多事可能只是在于你心境的转变罢了！
　　　　懂了吗？
　　　　当有个人爱上你，而你也觉得他不错。
　　　　那并不代表你会选择他。
　　　　
　　　　我们总说：「我要找一个自己很爱很爱的人，才会 谈恋爱。」
　　　　但是当对方问你，怎样才算是很爱很爱的时候，
　　　　你却无法回答他，因为你自己也不知道。
　　　　
　　　　没错，我们总是以为，我们会找到一个自己很爱很 爱的人。
　　　　可是后来，当我们猛然回首，我们才会发觉自己曾 经多么天真。
　　　　假如从来没有开始，你怎么知道自己会不会很爱很 爱那个人呢？
　　　　其实，很爱很爱的感觉，是要在一起经历了许多事 情之后才会发现的。
　　　　或许每个人都希望能够找到自己心目中百分之百的 伴侣，
　　　　但是你有没有想过『在你身边会不会早已经有人默 默对你付出很久了，只是你没发觉而已呢？』
　　　　所以，还是仔细看看身边的人吧！他或许已经等你 很久喽！
　　　　
　　　　当你爱一个人的时候，爱到八分绝对刚刚好。
　　　所有的期待和希望都只有七八分；剩下两三分用来爱 自己。
　　　　如果你还继续爱得更多，很可能会给对方沉重的压 力，让彼此喘不过气来，
　　　　完全丧失了爱情的乐趣。
　　　　
　　　　所以请记住，
　　　　喝酒不要超过六分醉，
　　　　吃饭不要超过七分饱，
　　　　爱一个人不要超过八分
　　　　
　　　　那天朋友问我：「到底该怎么做才算是爱一个人呢 ？」
　　　　我笑着跟他说：「其实每个人的爱情观都不一样， 说对了叫开导，但就怕说错反倒变成误导。那就糟糕了！」
　　　　
　　　　如果你也正在为爱迷惘，或许下面这段话可以给你 一些启示：
　　　　爱一个人，要了解，也要开解；
　　　　要道歉，也要道谢；
　　　　要认错，也要改错；
　　　　要体贴，也要体谅；
　　　　是接受，而不是忍受；
　　　　是宽容，而不是纵容；
　　　　是支持，而不是支配；
　　　　是慰问，而不是质问；
　　　　是倾诉，而不是控诉；
　　　　是难忘，而不是遗忘；
　　　　是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；
　　　　是为对方默默祈求，
　　　　而不是向对方诸多要求；
　　　　可以浪漫，但不要浪费；
　　　　
　　　　可以随时牵手，
　　　　但不要随便分手

in love now...

even guys cry..and they don't only cry in front of one person...

why are some people so stupid..to the point that they look for things to make their scars bleed again?

premise upon pure curiocity?
just random reality check?
or instinctive means for self-protection by making the cut deeper so that they won't fall for that again, or even doing themselves a service by pulling out?

i am taught to Forgive and Forget..
in reality, i found it hard to do both. so someone adviced me to just Forgive but never Forget which sounded good to me.
after following that advice, i've found it's almost impossible to Forgive without Forgetting...
so here comes the huge problem..while it's not within my ability to forget, where does forgiveness come about?
and no forgiveness, i'm not forgiven either...furthermore, how am i going to be reponsible for my words?
does giving a second chance, naturally equate to forgiveness or even forgetting???
senseless me
senseless world...

i miss home and friends...

just finished writing an 8 pages economic research paper...really excited..so happy for getting rid of this burdensome final term paper super headache..well...2 more days of classes to go and will try to sit for final exams as early as possible before leaving the college.

talked to zhangkuo and yiyi through video chatting last weekend. realised that i missed them so so much..the good thing is that i'm going to see them in a week's time...friends,,wait me there in Boston..

i've grown to be so attached to my roommate Vanessa. can't brace myself to face the fact that she won't be here anymore next semester and all we have together is only a few more days. i love you Sasa..God's grace will be with you wherever you go..hee....my sincere good wishes for Johnathan and you my dear...

i guess the other reason for me to be exceptionally excited tonight is due to hearing the engagement news of Tim's cousin Yang..aweeeeeeeee.....Yang said he had officially become a matured man. hee..but to me, Yang was a hard-to-find steadfast good man already. now there is something to look forward to...

well...suddenly feel that all the burdens on my shoulder are gone..i was wrong and mean to myself by regarding studying as a chore for the past semester..which shouldn't be the case at all..a rather banal topic..but well...there are times that you just let emotions and self-indulgence overide the logical and practical side of you...

oh yeah...i'm really happy to have had Millie by my side..a close friend..a confidant...

feeling extremly lethargic and aimless today..and realised that i've actually been like this for a while if not all this while...nvm...hope it's just the hang over effect from last night's party. my friend Kaitlin used the word "bleh" to describe this physical and emotional state in which you don't feel like doing anything and you know you are down and not happy, but no specific cause really..for me, during the "bleh" state, i only feel like sitting on my bed, hugging my comforter and pillow, while spacing out.....God help me..

oh..haha..the party last night was great...the first time that i played that "spin the bottle" game with all girls..haha..and i made out with a few of them...pretty cool..

gotta work on my spanish...

 

 

bad temperature for me...BAD BAD really bad....it's soooooooooooooo cold today..start to question myself why did i get myself into this kind of weather....winter has not yet stepped one foot in and i'm here freezing ..today's the first taste of the coldness up here in the eastcoast. oh no....i need warmth!!!!!

i fainted...yea...i fainted in the dining hall....good gracious...thx for everyone who was there got hold of me and thx for the timely oxygen supply from our beloved college public safety officers..without them, i've no doubt the whole experience would be so much more traumatizing..yeah..that's the thing. i was so honored to be taken into hosital for the first time by an ambulance..how cool..hee...

i'm fine..still alive and started to get lively again after lying in bed for 2 days. i guess the medication really worked well. they did a series of tests and it turned out that i had a strep thoat which was a bad virus infection in my throat and it caused a bad headache . the fainting should probably be due to dehydration and also general weakness since i refused to eat that day as it's too hard and too much a pain for me to swallow anything. now it's over..and i feel so much better. i don't ever wanna get sick again which mean i will seriously start working out. it helps me to get rid of those extra pounds gained too..

i'm really grateful for the incident though.it made me realised that i was so loved just like my dear roommie Mari said. the other roommate Vanessa and her, together with some other college friends were there in the hospital with me and they took so much care of me in the past two days..lov lov lovz...and thanks to all who either dropped by in my room to check on me or called or emailed me to show their concern..i even have had several pleasant surprises by having strangers randomly asking me whether i was feeling better. that is really heart-warming..and..yea..i must made a big scene that night fainting in the dining hall.ooops...

alright..move on...what's waiting for me after two days resting? tons of work.....

totally can't study in the dorm and i had been staying mainly in the room ever since college started..which means i didn't get much work done at all..the unproductive side of me..Yanxiong would surelly give me a lecture if he were here...well..from today onwards i gonna do some serious work in the library everyday i think. i found myself so contend and happy while i was sitting here in the spacious room looking out from this curved window which framed a wall completely. Yanxiong used "the Lord of the Ring scenery" to describe everything i could see from this window. i found it quite vivid description with the cathedral buildings and foliage full of colors.

one spanish test tomorrow and two more economics mid term exams await me this week....stress is an epidemic here too...not only in China or Singapore..

mid october..and heavy snow covered upstate New York this afternoon. the first snow this year.he showed me the heavy snowing scene from webcam..i'm yet to really see it. at the same time there was a big storm here in Massachusetts too and all the beautiful leaves are gone. the peaceful campus has suddenly changed its appearance..

it makes me feel so nostalgic. have gone through so much in the past 2 months. good and bad things...but i guess i'm getting along just fine.  miss Singapore especially..the good days with my awesome hostel and JC friends. it's just started. i guess as the weather getting colder until everything is frozen, i will remember even more clearly that i lived in a tropical island which was filled with sunshine.

 

 

PS.yet to get a new DC...can't wait to take more pics..yea...gained weight..sadly..have 3 buffets everyday. duh???

李唐牡丹的雍容华贵，远不及你的美丽 
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白茉莉的芬芳和红玫瑰的艳丽，也 
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不能道出我深深的情意。眼中
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早就没有什么爱与愁。只因
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我心深处，依然有你￡

time really passes by fast...in less than a week's time i'm going back to Singapore before flying to the states on 1 Sept. hmmm..can't say that i really look forward to anything in future or holding tight at something in the past..so i guess i will just get everything ready now, calmly leave my hometown, happily on my way to Singapore and ambitiously go to the states...haha....brilliant!!!

but to be honest..still pretty scared of leaving home so far....God be with me...

 

still the same..